In Just Us

I've been thinking for quite some time now how hard it is to be an African American male nowadays.  Sure it was extremely difficult to be black period while my parents was growing up but racism was wide open and the norm back then.  The news depresses me because it shows me proof that we have no hope.  Our African American President is being used as a scapegoat for our former president's fuck up.  Sure we are in an economic crises but Bush put us there.  President Barack Obama has done more for this country and the world in 3 years than Bush did in 8!

Another thing that disturbs me is our horrible justice system.  It has never been exactly fair for Blacks and Hispanics but now it is getting out of hand!  Trayvon Martin was only 17 when he was gunned done by a paranoid white man.  His killer's excuse was because he looked like he was "up to no good".  I guess it's a crime to buy skittles now.  I can relate because I've "fit the description" all my life.  I was stalked then ambushed by the police recently while coming home from work because I looked "suspicious".  Mind u the white lady I walked past a few minutes earlier was never harassed.


While Trayvon's murderer breaths easy, his parents have to deal with the fact that they will ever see their son.  In 1990 Phillip Pannell was shot in the back by Teaneck Police officer Gary Spath.  The white Offer thought the black Pannell had a gun.  after cowardly shooting Phillip in the back it was discover the the gun was actually a starter pistol.  Officer Spath was acquitted for the murder


If you're white u can kill your kids, rape maids and kill innocent people and never see a day in jail.  Black people aren't allowed to shoot themselves, know about yet not be involved in a crime, or basically live their lives normally.  We are the exception to "innocent until proven guilty" mantra.  Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. had a dream for racial equality...I have a do just live!

Taste Your Love

I'm a late bloomer to oral stimulation.  I didn't start indulging until my mid 20's,  Wow I quickly found out what I was missing.  I'm a pleaser, so it pleases me to know that a woman is enjoying what I'm doing to her.  Don't get me wrong...not every women is lucky enough to experience my oral fixation.  I don't want to come up looking like I have rabies if u know what I mean.  For the past few years I've noticed that there are a few lame ducks ruining such a beautiful experience.  Some men are so desperate to be with a woman that they will go down on a woman without being rewarded.  Not that there's anything wrong with that because that's a reward in itself, but it gives the act of foreplay a bad name.  Some women run with that and thinks EVERY man should do that.  So while we get our face wet, we leave with blue balls and they whip out their favorite toy(s) and get their real nut.  BLAH!!!  The only woman that will ever get that satisfaction is wifey, and I expected her to provide sloppy toppy whenever she feels fit as well.  Ok this got my mouth watering.  Until next time....

Jesse Boykins III | Prototype 3010, a short film

This is probably the best rendition of this song ever. Makes me want to find my prototype...without the whole stalking thing

I'm Back...Sorta Kinda

I took a lil break from blogging.  Well that and I've been extremely busy but I'm back at it...kinda.  Be on the lookout for my usual fuckery

#IMJUSTSAYING

I've been thinking about taking another break from social networks again.  Shit just aint fun anymore.  When u have to walk on eggshells to say or do what u want, what part of that is being social?  I'm finding that whatever I post on Facebook people wanna dissect and try to add their 2 cents.  Shit I write aint about u so sit the fuck down.  You're not that important and if your name isn't stated it's not about u!

I'm having a similar problem on Twitter.  I don't tweet for pussy, laughs, or fame.  I state whatever is on my mind at the time.  I thought that was the point of twitter...guess not.  I also like to retweet.  The button is there for a reason and it's a form of communication.  I would love to be able to use Twitter without retweeting people.  That way I can just talk about stupid shit that nobody gives a fuck about.  But I'm not a boring ass person so there's a better chance of pigs racing in Nascar.  DEAL WITH IT!!

I just wish people would mind their fucking business and just do them cause I always do me.  I'm not one of those bitch asses that complain about deleting accounts for attention so I'm not going anywhere.  I think I'm gonna just fall back from participating for awhile though

Issues With Commitment

I've been doing some thinking lately and I've come to the conclusion that I'm not getting married and possibly not having kids.  I don't have commitment issues at all.  My problem is finding willing to commit.

Commitment: to show loyalty, duty or pledge to something or someone

I've found that more than half the women who are in a rush to commit don't even know what the meaning of it is.  As a child little girls are taught that Prince Charming will come one day and sweep them off their feet.  That's the problem!  They're not taught what to do get the prince to notice them and then live happily ever after.  Or that there are more than one prince trying to get in the way (Prince Spend Money, Prince Lie To U, Prince Closet Gay, etc.).    Some women have a habit of rushing into a relationship and wanting the get married and have 2.5 kids with the big house.  If that doesn't happen in their time frame or the way that THEY want it then they will keep kissing frogs.  I may not be a prince but I'm far from a frog!!

I know there are quite a few faithful women left (and not just the ones that make it sound good on paper) but until I find my princess I'm gonna live the single life!

I'm Single

I have a problem.  Well it's not exactly a problem, but it is a gift and a curse.  I have trust issues sumthin serious.  Sure I've been in some pretty fucked up relationships before but I believe the root of the problem is much deeper.  It aint too many muthafukkas that I trust at all...family included.  I go into a relationship with my guards up from jump.  Not so much for fear of getting hurt, but to prevent it from happening all together.  I can honestly say I've only been in love twice.  The second time I'm not even sure it was love...more like a long lust.  Some say I need to snap out of it but with the outcome of my last few relationships FUCK THAT!  So until I find the woman that will love me and is willing to show me instead of tell me, I'm single!!  Will I ever get married?  Who know?  At this point it's not looking like it's in my future...