I'm Single

I have a problem.  Well it's not exactly a problem, but it is a gift and a curse.  I have trust issues sumthin serious.  Sure I've been in some pretty fucked up relationships before but I believe the root of the problem is much deeper.  It aint too many muthafukkas that I trust at all...family included.  I go into a relationship with my guards up from jump.  Not so much for fear of getting hurt, but to prevent it from happening all together.  I can honestly say I've only been in love twice.  The second time I'm not even sure it was love...more like a long lust.  Some say I need to snap out of it but with the outcome of my last few relationships FUCK THAT!  So until I find the woman that will love me and is willing to show me instead of tell me, I'm single!!  Will I ever get married?  Who know?  At this point it's not looking like it's in my future...